Ryan went to the ortho doctor on Tuesday for a check up. We figured they would take the cast off, take some x-rays, put a cast back on and send him home to continue recovering. Unfortunately, fate had something else in mind. When they removed the cast, his sutures were deeply infected. They admitted him to Erie County Medical Center on the spot and scheduled and additional surgery to debride the wounds. He had surgery on Friday and should be coming home tomorrow or Tuesday at the latest. The surgery went well, but they did have to go as deep as the bone to get all of the infection out. When he comes home, they will not be putting a cast back on, so we will have to be especially careful not to bump the leg. He still won't be able to put any weight on it for at least another 3 months, so it is a long road that seems to keep getting longer.
I am happy to report, however, that with each additional blow to his health, Ryan takes less and less time to come out of the initial shock and depression and makes another commitment to getting better and living longer. We are both trying to commit to healthier eating and healthier habits so that we might both get healthier and live longer together with Leah.
The weight has always been a huge issue for me that I thought I had conquered at least twice before in my life. As I sit here typing, the tears stream down at the thought of yet another attempt of taking it off and struggling to keep it off. Each time I try, it gets harder and harder. Sometimes it is just so much easier to keep doing what you have always done. But, as they say, if you keep doing what you have always done, you will keep getting what you have always got.
Right now, I feel like I will never find the resolve I need to make the changes I need to get healthy. There is a tiny pinpoint of hope in my heart, so I know I am not totally lost, but I need all the strength I can get to get better.
If you are reading this, please stop for a second and send a prayer up for Ryan and I. I would appreciate it more than you know.
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Prayers, Love and thoughts are always with you.
There is a difference between saying that you are ready to lose weight and being ready to do what it takes to lose the weight.
I know you will succeed. That pinpoint of Hope is a strong force guiding you in the right direction. You have the strength and the will to succeed. Don't sell yourself short.
you're the best! Love and miss you lots.
You've already succeeded twice. That's a major accomplishment for anyone and lets us know you can do it again. But maybe you need to to give yourself a break and just maintain for now til life calms down and Ryan is really on the road to good health. Focusing is so much more difficult when there are constant obsticals in the way.
We love you Lyn and are here for you anytime, prayers included.
My prayers are with you and your family, Lyn. And I say no time like the present to make the changes you want to make to get healthier. I know you're walking down a rough road right now, but when you take ownership of your health and your life, you will feel better emotionally about everything, as well as physically...you'll feel more in control about all facets of your life. I just know it!! Love you....
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